home is where the stage lights are

notting asked: This musical theatre wannabe sounds like my lab jerk. Remember what you told me, she's not worth it! Use her as motivation to fight for your place next year! And you can use her as entertainment when you re bored, cheer up (:

hello tasha :D thanks for your msg! im sorry i just saw it. anws, im totally over her. i know there’s more to life than there is. and im just going to think positive, and just keep in mind.. the bigger picture out there. i hope that the lab jerk doesnt annoy you… STAY HAPPY AND TASHY! hahaha.. I LOVE YOU! 

dont you just hate people who steal dreams? there’s this self-obsessed bitch in my school. she’s taking music this year and she wants to get into musical theatre. its totally fine by me, except for the fact that the only reason she wants to do it, is to become famous and have the whole world know about her? what the fuck… SERIOUSLY, WHAT THE FUCK. 

performing isnt about having the whole world know you and shit like that. if you think thats the way it should be, you’ll never be famous. you’ll never find the feeling of having achieved something. you backstab, lie and suck your way to the top. you’re stealing dreams from people who actually perform for a greater purpose. the feeling of being able to relate to that one person in the audience; to make that one person in the crowd feel that he is able to break away from his real life and be absorbed into this new world, even if its for an hour. im so fucking pissed and upset. and i have no idea why H cant see your selfish, egoistic ways. 

i dont get it, i dont like it. but i guess its just the way it has to be right? im almost certain you’ll get into musical theatre. but i dont think you’ll get far. i hope you wont. life sure is unfair! 

i couldn’t resist writing another long post… tumblr is my way of venting my frustrations. so warning, stop reading here on if you’re one who gets bored easily. 

so basically, my complaint of the day - BOYS! there are males in my class who are your typical male chauvinistic pigs. they are simply so arrogant, and they check out girls in the most obnoxious way ever. and if they have their eye on a girl, they naturally assume that the girl would like them back. i know, im using the terms - BOYS AND GIRLS, simply because i feel that they are such immature people. they dont have to connect with each other on a more intimate level (emotionally, of course) before they think that the girl is the one! drawn to looks. any girl who they think are not hot, would be discriminated against and not liked or treated with any respect. 

i found out a whole new meaning to the term shallow guys. i guess i’m a little feminist, but i dont understand why the hell do females have to flirt and act coy to be able to find a partner. i just dont get it! relationships are soooo complicated. and the boys in my class (not all of them), are just beyond gross! 

hi everybody. i have been so tired the past week, school’s been really hectic. my teacher has finally come back from london, so we are now been given loads of work to do. research essays, presentations and learning songs, etc etc etc. 

i just feel that i have to put in my best. its no longer the same as it was before. in JC, if i didn’t do my tutorial, i would just borrow other’s work. or just not turn up for school. but right now, i have so much to prove. and if i don’t hand in my work, i’ll miss out. i’ll lose out, and i can’t advance to the next level. i want this so badly, i don’t remember ever wanting anything this badly. i’m afraid that i will fail. i need to show that i have what it takes. now i have something that i actually want to work towards. i realised that i’ve lost that drive, back when i was in the rigid singapore system. and now, i’ve finally found what i felt was missing previously - drive. 

having said that, in spite of being so tired every day, nothing has ever felt more satisfactory or fun. its definitely different from what i thought it would be - all practical and no theory. i was wrong. but now, i’m really glad, i think i found a place where i truly and honestly want to be. :) i hope that you guys find it too! 

FUCK YOU!  PEOPLE WITH FAKE ACCENTS. I CONDEM YOU ALL. why cant you just speak proper english and not put on annoying accents that are just not funny at all.

the sight of you disgusts me to the core. i cant stand someone as sick as you who thinks that you’re “GOD’S GIFT TO MANKIND (particularly the women)” sorry, i may not be the best looking girl ard, or the hottest stuff ard…. BUT I SURE RATHER DIE A VIRGIN!!! and honestly being autistic sure is the lamest excuse ever. you want people to give you an advantage.. BUT OMG. PLS! i cant take your crap any longer. and seriously, how childish can you get? “why you so handsome sia” GOD. if you’re going to church, pls continue to do so.. YOU REALLY NEED GOD TO SAVE YOU! 

whats going on with your lives? im so sorry that i’ve been so busy with school. everyday, i wake up at 7am and come home at 9pm… I HAVE NO FUCKING LIFE! i cant even stay online long to chat and stuff like that. so pls update me on your lives via blogs and fb msgs. 

anws, i’ve been to my first ballet class and my first singing class… and i absolutely love my life here… i feel so happy learning stuff that will actually help me. i hope you guys get to do what you WANT to do as well. i have to sing an italian song (those opera-like songs)… so exciting right? but anws, im beginning to feel like i’ve to step up my game, cos it just seems so competitive. and trust people, certain people have begun to get on my nerves. and i found an idiot that i’ve “openly” declared war with. SOOOO ANNOYING. if you see me online, pls chat with me.. COS I HAVE SO MUCH TO HEAR FROM YOU GUYS.. <3 <3 <3 

PS: I SERIOUSLY NEED TO FUCKING BITCH ABOUT SOMEONE!!!!